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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

My science paper was absolutely great! Everything was foreign to me and I had a great time guessing the answers. Talk about good timing. Lynn was on the 3rd floor for her paper while I was on the 4th. I left the exam hall earlier because I really had no idea what else I could do. As soon as I handed in the paper, I went down supposedly to wait for Lynn. However, when I reached the 3rd floor, I saw her coming out of the hall as well. What great timing. I think the timing works the same for the 2 of us who had to guess the answers.

We had tourism tutorial after that. After our lesson, we spoke to our tutor regarding our projects. While he was talking to us, Lynn and I were completed taken away by his lovely, crystal blue eyes. His eyes were practically talking to us. Fantastic is the only word to describe it. Sincerity and gentleness is what you see from his eyes. His eyes drove us nuts...

Monday, February 27, 2006

Help... I don't understand a single thing what the Science lecture notes are talking about. Tomorrow's the test.

Worst case scenerio: close my eyes and guess the answers. Pray I picked the right one (or vice versa), especially since it is a MCQ and true/false paper.

That shall be it!

Someone told me this story yesterday. I was greatly encouraged.

There was once when I was in such a low point in my life that I saw myself being on a shipwreak with a huge typhoon. I was clinging onto the mast of the ship with all the strength I had. I cried out to God, "why aren't you here to help me out of this?"

He told me "when you hold onto the mast, it is like you holding onto the finger of My hand. But I want you to know that I have been holding you in the palm of My hand all these while."

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Thanks Paul, I love the heartssssssss..... Love you.

Friday, February 24, 2006

I hate it when men twist and turn their words in front of different people. Worst of all, when you confront them, they claim that you have got it wrong the first time round and put all the blame on you just to get themselves out of the shit. What they needed was a scapegoat. You are sacrificed just because you are in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I need to confront my problems but first of all, I need to know how to confront my tears.

I place my trust in Thee

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

I am having my mid-sem break now. But this break is definitely no break for me.

5 modules --
3 mid-term tests immediately when school starts --
4 projects to complete.

My break (4 days) ! Yay...

Yesterday was my brother's birthday. Because of that, we have been having fine dining for the past 2 nights, Sunday and last night. We went to Lawry's at Paragon on Sunday for dinner. (Dad paid for it.) Last night's dinner was at Sistina's in Chip Bee Gardens. (Mum paid for it.) Had some wine there for accompliment as well... For both places, the ambience was fabulous. Food served was heavenly but of course, at exorbitant prices as well. Nevetheless, I still think it's worth it to pamper ourselves once in a while! ;-)

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Abraham against hope believed in hope.

We exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and HOPE DOES NOT DISAPPOINT.

Romans 5: 3-5

Monday, February 13, 2006

I fall at Your feet
Declare You're my King
I cast my cares before You
Your peace shall reign in me

Sunday, February 12, 2006

I need and want that so badly, but I will hold that back for the time being. I know that right now, I want the youths in YF to stay united and hold on even in times of trials even more badly. I trust that God will take care of my other needs and give it to me in His time if it is in His perfect will even without my strivings, when I set my focus right -- on Him.

Today during the ice-breakers, we played a number of games. For a couple of them, it was best to be able to know the other party well in order to win it. Amelia could read my mind with 100% accuracy on a few occasions. I did not need to say much. One sentence was sufficient for her to know what was on my mind. I was super impressed.

That made me remember that she might leave for Australia to further her studies in a year's time. I wonder how will I be able to ta han it, considering she has been so close by my side. She is the one I grumble to, cry to, first one to talk to... I can be real in front of her. I can be myself.

I never tell you this, but I really value you so much as a friend. Thanks.

Had our very first youth run YF today. We fought for this day. It was exchanged after lots of tears, conferencing, prayers etc. Those of us who had fought together, you know what I mean. This first step of independence certainly means more good things to come. (I am making it sound so much like Lee Kwan Yew fighting for Singapore's independence...)

To start off, I was already very impressed at how the youths were so quick to volunteer themselves to do the different segments of YF, such as ice-breakers, praise and worship, basically anything that needed preparation. Today, without giving any reminders, they got the slides ready for worship and were preparing the songs with the guitar even before actual YF started.

During the YF, we started laying hands to pray for fellow members, broke into smaller groups to pray and everyone were feeling so comfortable with each other that they readily shared their testimonies. I just cannot express the joy witnessing all that. All these happened for the first time in 7 years.

Things are indeed different when the youths start to take ownership of the cell group. I know I have achieved so much more than in any other YF meetings I have ever attended in years. Praise God.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Birth is such a miracle. Another blessed baby has JUST been added to our church. Praise God!

Friday, February 10, 2006

As I take a little time off to reflect on life, I ask myself this question, 'what exactly have I done that am I really proud of.'

Fame? Recognition? Power? Money? I have had them all. I have had my chances with all of the above. But are those things that I am proud of? Not at all.

To be frank, I think I have spent 20 years of life not knowing what I have done which makes me really proud of myself.

I haven't done a thing right. Then again, what is right anyway? Who is the one who decides?

Pointless rantings, I know

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Amazing how almost all my friends' blogs are featuring the ageing problem. This has also been the talk of the town among us whenever we meet up.

Yea, we are ALL turning into 1/5 century old creatures. No turning back after we hit the BIG 0! (Paul, thanks for re-emphaising in your email that these 20-ish creatures are no longer youths.) So Rine, I fully understand how you feel when these GIN NA laugh at us...

Funny how Carine, being Carine is starting to take care of her skin with skin whitening products etc! Now guys, look who has been going on and on about how I needed to look tanner just 2 YEARS AGO...

20 onwards IS a BIG deal! Imagine growing out of the 'I don't care what's going to happen, take 1 day at a time' phase. 20s will be an ongoing process of work, having our own family, children, caring for our parents and no longer the other way around, etc, etc.

Embrace it Ladies and Gentlemen!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

We were doing group work during the tutorial when my tutor called me and asked if she could have a word with me. I thought what I have done for me to deserve this one-on-one attention at the front of the class. The conversation went like that --

She: Hi Rachel, I realised you're a girl with so must dignity, poise... (and blah blah blah) I thought you really looked MATURED. I would have thought you were from year 2 or 3. WHY IS THIS SO?

Me: (is there a reason to look matured??? -- eye rolling) oh, it just runs in the family.

Seriously. . . Mdm NUS tutor asking such questions.

Monday, February 06, 2006

It's 1 plus in the morning now. This Sunday has been so long for me. I have been up since 7 plus this morning and I am still awake at this hour. Been through quite a number of battles in just a day.

A little weary, but I will still stand strong.

I guess I have passed my normal bedtime. Am still coherent. Very awake now.

I am trusting in the promises that cannot fail.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Was feeling a little cranky a few days ago so I decided to write an email to this friend of mine who migrated to Hawaii to rant about it. Wasn't really expecting a reply to those ranting, because if I did, I would not have sent an email in the first place.

As I was preparing to go to school today, I received this call with a mysterious number. Then this mysterious voice started speaking. I did not even realise it was him, considering he was speaking with the new American accent he picked it recently.

Spoke to him for a good twenty minutes. He actually called to check how I was immediately after reading my email. I was very touched of course!

The joke was, though he spoke with the American accent, but as the conversation continued, his Singaporean accent started appearing again. He is still lost with his identity, as of now. While he has been Americanised, he still can't lose the Singaporeaness. Imagine Singlish in American accent. I can't help laughing about it.

In a blink of an eye, after doing some calculations, I realised he has already migrated for seven months.

Thanks Paul, for calling.